I know its spelt project losers. So... this is kind of odd for me to say but I talked to Jess about it and she knows this is happening. Now I put the question to you: Old Jess or Soon To Be New Jess? Explain and discuss.
What I really mean is Jessica as she was: perverted. Or the new Jess who is trying to not be so extreme in that particular area.
oh and as a side note, from her: "i won't hurt them if they diss me badly"
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So guys, some of you probably haven't realised but, over the holidays it was like a light turned on in my head. I suppose I realised that the way I've been acting has not been good. At all. And not just in the perverted sense. I think I'm just a bit much. The hugging, the kissing, the random acts of violence. I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to scare those around me, nor do I want to hurt them. I've probably offended/hurt most, if not all, of you in the past.
So I'm here now, apologising to each and every one of you.
And I know that apologies can't fix everything and I can't guarantee that I won't hurt one of you guys again.
So I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm trying to change into a better person. Someone who understands where the line is and knows when to stop. Someone who thinks before they speak. It's not going to be easy though yeah? Change doesn't happen over night. It's two steps forward and one step back for me.
So I'm asking you all to bear with me here. I'm going to change for the better!
Jessica
27 January 2009
The Jessica Projekt
I know its spelt project losers. So... this is kind of odd for me to say but I talked to Jess about it and she knows this is happening. Now I put the question to you: Old Jess or Soon To Be New Jess? Explain and discuss.
What I really mean is Jessica as she was: perverted. Or the new Jess who is trying to not be so extreme in that particular area.
oh and as a side note, from her: "i won't hurt them if they diss me badly"
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So guys, some of you probably haven't realised but, over the holidays it was like a light turned on in my head. I suppose I realised that the way I've been acting has not been good. At all. And not just in the perverted sense. I think I'm just a bit much. The hugging, the kissing, the random acts of violence. I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to scare those around me, nor do I want to hurt them. I've probably offended/hurt most, if not all, of you in the past.
So I'm here now, apologising to each and every one of you.
And I know that apologies can't fix everything and I can't guarantee that I won't hurt one of you guys again.
So I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm trying to change into a better person. Someone who understands where the line is and knows when to stop. Someone who thinks before they speak. It's not going to be easy though yeah? Change doesn't happen over night. It's two steps forward and one step back for me.
So I'm asking you all to bear with me here. I'm going to change for the better!
Jessica
What I really mean is Jessica as she was: perverted. Or the new Jess who is trying to not be so extreme in that particular area.
oh and as a side note, from her: "i won't hurt them if they diss me badly"
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So guys, some of you probably haven't realised but, over the holidays it was like a light turned on in my head. I suppose I realised that the way I've been acting has not been good. At all. And not just in the perverted sense. I think I'm just a bit much. The hugging, the kissing, the random acts of violence. I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to scare those around me, nor do I want to hurt them. I've probably offended/hurt most, if not all, of you in the past.
So I'm here now, apologising to each and every one of you.
And I know that apologies can't fix everything and I can't guarantee that I won't hurt one of you guys again.
So I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm trying to change into a better person. Someone who understands where the line is and knows when to stop. Someone who thinks before they speak. It's not going to be easy though yeah? Change doesn't happen over night. It's two steps forward and one step back for me.
So I'm asking you all to bear with me here. I'm going to change for the better!
Jessica
5 comments:
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Lee said...
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OH dove you know what I think already but here it is again so other people can voice their inner blahs. I like both Jessicas(?..o.o) and I really couldnt give a shittle if it were the new or old but I slightly(tidbit) prefer the new because it makes me safer.
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January 27, 2009 at 7:45 PM
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marshmellow_cheeks said...
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I feel that perverted Jessica was a mask of sorts, that it wasn't who she really is(or is it that it's who you've been so long that you don't know how to be anyone else?). Like I told Shelley some long long time ago, the reason for a mask is that if someone doesn't like who you're pretending to be, it's okay, because it's not really you. It's like this quote I read the other day "I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not."
I think that maybe Jessica felt that being perverted and 'touchy feely' was her personality, her trademark; that without it, she'd have nothing.
I don't mind. Jessica, you'll always be Jessica to me. I think that if you feel like it's time for change, then go for it! "Sometimes the old habits and we have aren't serving us well in the game of life anymore, and we need to push our comfort zones and grow".
I use way too many quotes now, but I suppose that other people have said what I'm trying to say more eloquently. And I say way too much, but you wanted my opinion. :)
I reckon change is good. Embrace change. Resistance is an exercise in futility anyway.
I say bring on the new Jessica! :) -
January 27, 2009 at 9:42 PM
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January 27, 2009 at 10:49 PM
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justasimplepoohbear said...
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i think change is good. according to helen it can not be avoided. it can also be positive or negative... so we'll just have to see which one it will be ^^ with that said i think the old jessica was good too so whatever she changes to become she'll still be the same in my heart ^^ no matter how u change we'll all support you
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January 28, 2009 at 9:04 PM
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January 29, 2009 at 7:53 PM
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OH dove you know what I think already but here it is again so other people can voice their inner blahs. I like both Jessicas(?..o.o) and I really couldnt give a shittle if it were the new or old but I slightly(tidbit) prefer the new because it makes me safer.
I feel that perverted Jessica was a mask of sorts, that it wasn't who she really is(or is it that it's who you've been so long that you don't know how to be anyone else?). Like I told Shelley some long long time ago, the reason for a mask is that if someone doesn't like who you're pretending to be, it's okay, because it's not really you. It's like this quote I read the other day "I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not."
I think that maybe Jessica felt that being perverted and 'touchy feely' was her personality, her trademark; that without it, she'd have nothing.
I don't mind. Jessica, you'll always be Jessica to me. I think that if you feel like it's time for change, then go for it! "Sometimes the old habits and we have aren't serving us well in the game of life anymore, and we need to push our comfort zones and grow".
I use way too many quotes now, but I suppose that other people have said what I'm trying to say more eloquently. And I say way too much, but you wanted my opinion. :)
I reckon change is good. Embrace change. Resistance is an exercise in futility anyway.
I say bring on the new Jessica! :)
i think change is good. according to helen it can not be avoided. it can also be positive or negative... so we'll just have to see which one it will be ^^ with that said i think the old jessica was good too so whatever she changes to become she'll still be the same in my heart ^^ no matter how u change we'll all support you
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